friday!
wonder why am i so bored. i stil have so much to pack. yet, im so bored.
shit thing. i duno why. i just feel very empty when im home. its like.. i feel cooped up. i still have so much to do la. but no time. i come home everyday at like.. 7? then i can only use the com for 10 mins? when my sis is batheing.. cz.. i watch alot of tv. hahahah. oh wells. its suppose to be holidays! but no holiday! oh wells. i wonder how im gonna survive drill for 3 weeks man.. sigh. caro is not definitely going everyday.sigh. dunno la. im so contradicting myself.
ANIME! i suddenly became a fan man. so nice. woots. i finish one series by one series. so.. im slower than others? hahahhaa. sigh. im so sorry!! man. i dunno. its so confusing. i realise, whenever im busy, i put aside all the feelings and just do. i was just packing, and i forgot everything, and for that 2 hours, i packed and packed. i was having bad stomach ache. my mind is so full of things. but i packed. and thought of nothing. wow. man. i feel so.. yea. yesterday, i was sitting infront of the com, trying to send some stupid things. i was having back ache, and cramps, and then have trying to send some stupid things that cannot be sent. the file is absolutely too big for the gmail to send. gmail cannot send how can the other emails send? sigh man.. no brains.
alrights. i should go and do wad i should be doing.
everybody who is depressed or sad, or just deprived, or disappointed in one way or another, dont worry k? you're not alone. im serious. im also suffering the same thing. if not, i understand cause i probably went through all that before. just do your best, trust and He will do the rest k? i guess its really up to yourself to pull yourself up. comeon. lets go!
if you're feeling disppointed, it means you know you can do better than that. and so, strive for it! try again next year. if you're just waiting, that means you still have that small hope that the wait will soon be over. persevere! and hold on to that small hope. even if you mean to let it go, try to hold that last thread of hope. one day, the wait will be over. being deprived means you know you have it, just that you're too lazy or has no ability to grab on to "it". stretch out your hand! and grab what you're deprived of.